I think hope today is going to be the toughest day. I am so tired, in every way, Photobooth to the rescue. (I chuckled at my naïvely energetic self of yesterday glancing at the posts...reading, food, photography, Whole30!)
I slept about nine hours last night. (Cannot remember the last time I slept that much.)
Not having something to watch on tv was a huge mental burden lifted. I didn't realize how much cache food and tv have on my mental space/energy. As in, "tonight I will watch/eat ____", "in a few hours I will watch/eat ____", "in a few minutes I will watch/eat ____", "now I will watch/eat ____". The core starts with something I enjoy/have enjoyed in the past, but then it spins itself into something much larger and less real...quite powerful and disconnected.
I started getting tired in the late afternoon. I decided not to caffeinate myself because I wanted to be able to sleep unencumbered. I enjoyed some dried apricots after dinner (my "sugar" fix) and talked myself down from eating the whole package.
Slept well.
This morning, I am moving very slowly. I don't feel as bad as I did the first time I removed grains and sugar (was I doing dairy at the time? cannot recall.) I have a bit of a headache. I feel very leaden. The bags under my eyes...oy.
I took a bunch of shots and I look dead in some of them. I liked this one because I can see the black under my eyes, but I can also see a spark of life in them.
Pest control will be here soon to talk mice (Cap has been doing some big cleaning in the kitchen moving the stove and fridge to get into normally dark tight spaces...no evidence of mice activity, which is a relief). After that, I am clearing the day.
Peace.
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