Thank you for your kind, caring and thoughtful words and well wishes. Thank you for bearing witness...with curiosity, love and a steady gaze. I am lucky...and honored.
I am feeling, overall, at greater peace with each passing day.
I think it has to do with where I am in my menstrual cycle, I think it also has to do with coming off the Whole30.
I think it is also part and parcel with my process as it unfolds. Whole30 did not bring about the change I thought it might. My labs and meeting with my western doctor did not bring about the change I thought it might.
That sucked...it was a rough spot. But, it actually forced some transformation...it pried open something inside. The stress bubbled up and out.
I alluded a few posts back to how my easy smile shows almost nothing of what's really going on inside, sometimes. I have realized in the past few days how easily I can trick myself into thinking I am "letting something go" when I am actually swallowing it, pushing it down into me.
I am fast moving past my disappointment. Conversations and emails with friends and loved ones have been helping me truly let go of it. Expressing my frustration, anger, confusion...raising my voice, feeling the emotional rush and letting it run a little rampant...it feels good, it is a release. I am grateful.
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