On my walk

this spot of red cheered me.

Another short walk this morning.  Cap has an early morning and the kids are not comfortable left alone.  I woke early enough to drive to the park for a longer walk, but it was darkish.  And then I ended up writing a long e-mail to W who is in Germany for a few weeks and whose phone presence I have been missing.

I discovered that even a 15 minute walk can add dimension to my consciousness.

I have been missing my time and treatments with V.  I've been aware that practicing Qigong is a way to treat myself during this time though I am not practicing much.  (Honestly, what would it take?)

I realized on my walk that I am missing the 'male' feedback I get from V.  Because most of my close confidantes are female, my weekly talks with V were special.  I don't have any deep understanding of the mechanics of male/female energy (in terms of yin/yang), but I know that balance is always good, and my relationship with him provides me with balance.

The other thing I noticed was that I could not get my breath, the feeling of it, past my clavicle.  I kept trying to breathe deeply as I walked and my chest was so tight with energetic congestion that the sensation of breath would not get through.

Awareness is good.  Maybe I'll go practice now?