Top bunk at sunrise yesterday. Both kids had trouble falling asleep and then Sag had a very restless night, up and down a few times. Here he finally slept and I staggered back to my bed (presently the fold out in the living room because I am an AC all-the-time person and Cap is an AC only-when-absolutely-necessary person). I finally fell asleep around 5:30 am.
Believe me when I say that the level of sleep deprivation and disturbance I have been experiencing in 2013...sucks. Yesterday morning when I woke up from my four hours, I was awash in negativity. But, generally, I am accepting of it. I think it is part of my menopausal story. It is part of my parenting story. Parts of me and my life that I would not have any other way.
Thanks to my work with Vinny over the years, and having a partner who gives me the space and time to be wholly who I am, I experience the natural stress that comes with sleep deprivation territory, but I do not pile on the stress that can come with "baggage" territory. (The chorus of voices inside judging and criticizing from all possible angles.)
So, after a brief battle with the voices and a flurry of texting with Cap, I decided to postpone common meal one day and cancel my plans to go to tap class in the evening (the session started three weeks ago and I have not made it there yet...) I headed into the kitchen and surprised myself with my productivity. In retrospect, I believe it was kitchen therapy at work.
Roasted broccoli, cauliflower, zucchini and fennel from the farm...
baked chicken thighs seasoned with salt, pepper, garlic and Galena Street rub (huh, I just noticed at their site they list sugar in the ingredients...didn't notice that on my jar)...
weeded, washed, spun and stored two heads of lettuce...
made mayo using Nom Nom Paleo's old school method of whisking. The trick is to have helping hands hold the bowl and keep you company...
I believe this method was quicker than using the blender...crazy...
and beautiful...
made pesto, too. I used the beautiful bunch of licorice basil from our CSA share and some garlic scape, pine nuts, olive oil and salt. It came out quite tasty. The licorice flavor nearly obliterated in the blitz of blades.
By the time I looked up from all this Cap was home from work. I finally ate something (a plate of chicken and veg, natch) after having no appetite all day. Settled into folding laundry and watching an episode of The Newsroom.
I tweaked the kids' bedtime routine a little and talked to them about needing some sleep after the debacle of the night before. They fell asleep rather quickly, I slept a solid seven hours despite Sag coming in at some point during the night, and woke up to this...
Common meal tonight, cooking and cleaning today. I boiled my spuds for potato salad and have used this opportunity to write to cool down the kitchen. I am also making a green salad and a fruit salad. Cool kitchen, lots of chopping.
Here are some links and a song (it makes me sad but sometimes life is like that)...
• as someone who loves a good hummus but has all but eliminated beans from her diet (even when I am not Paleo) this recipe for mung bean hummus has me very intrigued. mung beans are actually seeds and not beans and I think won't give me the same digestive hassle.
• I like the idea of flavor boosters and love condiments, in general. this one is on my list to make and give a go.
Peace and love.
Peace and love.
1 comment:
The lack of sleep is awful, awful.....I admire your strength in not adding the 'negativity' and inner thoughts onto the fatigue. What I remember exactly is the dull rock my brain became...I would go to work incapable of thought. I cancelled a ton of things and hated every minute of it.
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