I'm just a big cliché

Cap has got the kids watching The Three Stooges.  I'm on my own.  I can share the room, just not that particular space.  I'm plugged into my tunes and thinking about what a big old cliché I am.

I'm not at "resolutions", but I am definitely thinking about process and continued opportunity as the new year, and yes, new decade, fast approaches.

I've got a new budget ready to go.  I designed a new accounting sheet and it's feeling sensical and doable though I know the doing is going to be difficult.  Decreasing spending by 20% is a sea change, really.  (I'm starting out at 16%...a wiser person would start at 10%, but I'm dreamy that way :-)

I'm going to start stretching and strengthening my will muscle.  It can't be too late.  I can't forever attribute my lack of will to my childhood/herstory/past.  Well, I can, but where's the awareness and growth and learning in that?

Again, another person would perhaps start with one area, but I'm jumping in.  Time outdoors, Qigong, and vegan eating.  Every day.  For a year.  Typing that leaves me quivery with anticipation and, I'll admit it, dread.  Th big cliché is setting yourself up for stunning failure by making such pronouncements on New Year's Eve ;-)

One thing I can't give up is my time on the computer/online.

As I come into more balance, that will work itself out.  No pressure and no worries.  As long as I am co-parenting and learning at home with these two kids, my time is going to be limited and in many ways, not mine.  It's critical that I feed my soul with nourishment, warmth and light when I can.

I love the energy that comes to me and rushes through my veins when I connect with a person, their words, their feelings, their truths, their laughter, their songs...and when I hook up my own connection by posting myself out there.  A lot of that happens fiber optically for me, it's really much more of a blessing than a curse.

Last year I made lists of knitting and books (fiction and non-fiction). 

I ain't doing that this year because I did not finish a single book from either book list...wow, talk about crash and burn.  I still would like to read those same books and I have about thirty other books I'd like to read in my virtual "book bag" in my online library account.

And, I'd like to do some more knitting.  I've got a number of projects on the needles and a number of projects-in-waiting...

January is going to be about the three daily "will" exercises mentioned above, mixed into a warm, nourishing soup of living more intentionally hewing to the new budget, renewing focus on the kids' learning styles, needs and interests, and continuing on creating a wonderful-to-breathe-in living space.

A very special ingredient will be added to the mix in mid-January.  The 14 year old daughter of a dear friend (a child I haven't seen since she was 4 :-) will be homestaying with us for a month.  I am excited and happy...we are all looking forward to her arrival.

So, it's a lot, but I am choosing these things...these practices and ways of being which will help me be clearer, more aware, and more happy.  Thank you for being with me as a part of the whole.  Know that I feel your warmth and support and love.

10 minutes left.  Happy new year :-)