There is an occasional longing to look into the crystal ball. For me, lately, I am looking for reassurance that everything will be okay. I am feeling shaken up.The changing of the seasons is a time of chaos and vulnerability. I am feeling it these days quite intensely. Vinny voices what I know...that something significant is pushing about inside me.
PMS has become more clearly a changing-of-seasons time for me every month. Deeper emotions erupt demanding light and attention. I am at their mercies and lately, they have been showing little.
In the last week or so I have experienced a loneliness I haven't seen 'round these parts since adolescence. Yikes! If you were ever a teenage girl you may know what I mean. You boys probably know what I mean, too, but you've likely never talked about it so I can't be sure. ;-) Emo, emo, emo...
It has felt like a battlefield just under my skin and behind my eyes. Needing to retreat and be internal, to drown in beats, float on melodies and hear stories about how we are stardust. But, also needing to be present, for my children in particular.
I am choreographing something approaching rhythmic. It's all I can do.
2 comments:
You're quite poetic, my dear. You seem to have some serious creative juices flowing within you that must come out for all the world to enjoy. Your blog is wonderful...perhaps writing a novel???
much love to you,
Melody
Thanks, Melody :-) I wrote my first poem recently which was an amazing and deeply satisfying experience...
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