Whole30 :: Day 18

I missed the sleep sweet spot last night.

At 8:30 I was lying in bed scratching Baxter in the dark.  The kids were watching Mythbusters in their room and Cap was out at the Write On Sports wrap party.  I was very sleepy.

At 9:30 the Red Sox game was on and Cap was tucking the kids in.  Baxter was walked and medicated for the night (eye infection = ointment + cone of shame for an hour).

At 10:30 I was playing Candy Crush and otherwise messing around on the laptop.  The Red Sox played on and I wondered if we were going to watch Real Time.  Cap was asleep on the floor (he denied it, but snores don't lie).

At 11:30 we turned in and Sag climbed into bed with me.  I usually send him back to his bed if I am still awake, but I really thought I would drop off to sleep very soon, so I didn't.

At 12:30 I was up in my chair playing Candy Crush.

At 12:45 I downloaded Bubble With Saga to my phone because I am stuck on a level in Candy Crush.

At 2:00 I finally felt sleepy enough to not care about fighting for space in the bed and went to sleep.

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I pushed through feeling wrecked this morning.  Took the dog out in a cool drizzle, made a quick shopping list, popped a cookie in my mouth, grabbed my bags...and went to the farmer's market with Kelly.

Stocked up on meat and eggs because we'll be away next weekend.  Grabbed some kid-friendly veg at Starbrite's stand (carrots and lettuce for Gem, cukes for Sag).  Enjoyed the hum of kindred spirits seeking nourishing connection in the rain.  And the good mood of the barista at Red Eye.  She must have had a good night or good night of sleep!

Last week I went too long without eating on Farmer's market day.  Today I did a little better and ate as soon as I put the cold stuff away.  Beets, chicken, melon.  Yum.  I am defrosting some ground sirloin to make the Thai Primal Beef again.  That was so tasty.  I have zucchini and a red cabbage to cook up today or tomorrow.

I am not sure my mind is alert enough to read today, I hope so.  Curling up with a book sounds heavenly about now.

Peace and love.

Got a lot on my head

After a couple of days of feeling on the listless side, I have been like a ping pong ball today.  A seemingly random one.  Going from one thing to another in my mind and with my body.

• how I woke up: weepy child in bed frustrated by my not following "the rules".  when I stated it was confusing (in retrospect, not the best choice of words...honest, but not careful) to have him happy when I break the rules when it benefits him (being flexible) and upset when I break them and the result is not to his advantage (being a jerk...not his word).  I was shocked when my observation sent him into a tailspin of self-loathing ("I'm sorry I'm such a bad son!")  oh my.

• farmer's market run.  dammit.  Anthony had me all psyched when he said he had a small pork shoulder...and then plunked down a huge one.  when I explained, again, that I didn't think it would fit in my slow cooker, he brought out the other shoulder and it did look narrower...so I bought it.  the pork is big.  I hope pulled pork freezes well.  also picked up eggs, ground sirloin and a ribeye steak.  and apple cider from Ginger. 

• after I put the meat, eggs and cider away, I realized I had just enough time to go food shopping.  I took a risk and did not meal plan...I didn't have time.  went a bit over budget, mostly because I bought a number of items for Gem's lunch tomorrow.  we're going to be out and I wanted to make sure he did not feel left out while Sag had fun sampling food from food trucks.  Gem's lunch will include: steak (I got a smaller one, also grass-fed), organic raspberries and chocolate soy pudding.

• while Cap took Sag to swim class, Gem chilled out (he is feeling much better) and I took a semi-hard look at my surroundings.  the decluttering/organizing happens in spurts and there has been a fallow period.  I made a decision and then made two phonecalls to figure out how the decision would play out.  made plans with Danielle to go to Ikea next week.

• cleaned the kitchen.  not top to bottom.  but I did tend to the floor which hadn't been swept in awhile.  moved my body to some tunes.  prepared some grazing food for Gem.  remembered I have to make an appointment for a donation pick-up.  it is amazing how one can become blind to piles in corners.

• Sag bounced in.  he loves his swim class and loved getting a slice of Sicilian on his way home.  he still smelled like chlorine.

• took advantage of Cap being around and went up to the bookstore.  remembered to make a list, but failed to remember everyone I needed to.  four gift cards and two gift books later, as I was opening the car door I realized there's another kid in our life who has a birthday in October.  finally dropped off a pair of pants to the dry cleaners.  they'll be ready in time to wear on vacay.

• called an order of saag paneer in and drove over to pick it up.  such a great restaurant.  a warm space full of irresistible aromas.  the smart manager remembered a mistake had been made last time I ordered and asked to make sure things had been resolved.

• saag paneer lunch with a Starbucks Indivisible coffee follow.  tea with honey for the boys.

• started thinking about my trip.  gifts, devices (think I'll go with the iPad), clothes, etc.

• paid the rent.

• took a look on CraigsList at rentals.  Cap and I had a talk yesterday and have decided we're here for at least four more years (starting this Summer).  part of me would love to move to an apartment more to our liking.  specifically hardwood floors, a bigger kitchen and, ideally, a washer/dryer in the unit.  but, another part of me blanches at the thought of moving.  that's a lot of work before and during.

It's chilly in the apartment today.  I am wearing my colors and keeping cozy.  Big drop in temp the last twenty-four hours.

Yesterday, Vinny exclaimed in delight over my t-shirt.  He loved that it said "be flexible" in green because green is the color associated with the liver, which governs emotions.  He said the blue of the shirt is associated with the kidney and that these were two systems good to have "covered".  I was delighted by his delight.

After reading apartment-for-rent ads, I was spinning a bit.  (You probably can't tell in the pic, but inside I was racing!)  Blogging helped calm me down.  Ahhhh...

Tomorrow, Maker Faire New York and an early dinner with the cousins.  Maybe ices and tortillas, too.

Happy birthday to blog reader and childhood friend, Karen!!!  Hope you are having a wonderful day being celebrated.

Peace and love.

P.S.  The Avengers was fun.  But our kids won't be watching it till they're older (they trusted us to preview it for scary-to-them stuff).