Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Hum

Hearing every hum.  The fan as I came to because my stomach was aching dully.  The insects as they play their summer drone.  (Happy to have windows open again.)  The fish tank mechanism which keeps the water moving and somewhat fresh as organic matter builds up again.  The cars swooshing by with more frequency as the clocks round eight.  Infinity sideways.

My last two appointments with Dr. V. have been canceled.  I'm attempting to bumble along.

I was gobsmacked yesterday out of the blue with a recurring concern: the privacy of my children with all the blogging that I do.  Specifically, the pics.  I'm thinking on what I want to do, I feel a change is coming.

Began reading The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo yesterday.  And found myself bopping over to the computer at the end of each chapter to google various Swedish and/or Eurocentric words.  This tickled me.  I'm enjoying the book so far and find it interesting that I thought the main character was a teenager.  She's not!


Feeling like a pupa.  A pupa within a pupa.  There's plenty of hum within.  Hormonal, viral, organic, toxic.  A mix gutty, as opposed to, heady.  This kind of heavy internal churning takes and slows energy, yet, of course, time marches on.  The people and events on my calendar/in my physical space keep me tethered to the here and now.  How I feel is paradoxical: grateful for the connection despite a longing to be left alone.

7 comments:

Jamie said...

I started reading the book but loaned it to my Dad because he can read it much faster. He gave it back and I need to start reading it again. But right now I'm reading A Year in Provence.

We can take naps when I visit as part of your alone time :-)

shirley said...

Seeing you is above and beyond...I hope you know that :-) xo

shirley said...

You're the second person from whom I could have borrowed the book. I have to try to remember to ask about borrowing books before buying them. I made an exception in buying this book bc I wanted to read it a lot, the wait for a library copy was going to be long, and I found it at Amazon for 50% off. But, borrowing is cheaper :-)

Jamie said...

I also have the second book so if you want to borrow that one let me know. I think my dad may be reading it right now.

shirley said...

I would love to :-)

Susan Gurry said...

LOVED this book and the second one also! I am on the library waiting list for The Girl Who Kicked the Hornet's Nest right now. Just started "The Lacuna" by Kingsolver...the beginning is a little slow...

shirley said...

I am a fan of Barbara Kingsolver... The Poisonwood Bible is one of my favorite books. I borrowed The Lacuna from the library and couldn't finish it on time (this was back when it was a brand new book). I found the beginning slow, too. I've heard it picks up significantly after the slow start. I'll go back to it someday...