I think the decaffeinated Lady Grey tea has enough residual caffeine in it to give me a boost. Maybe it's the dollop of honey I've taken to putting into it. Girlyman is on the stereo, laundry in the machines, directions to Kelly's gotten (Fiber Arts later).
Cap was in bed most of Friday and Saturday, down with a cold. I am so bad when it comes to giving him sympathy when he gets sick. It's ridiculous, but I resent it. I think thoughts like, "wow, when's the last time I got to stay in bed for two days straight", or, "if he would just take better care of himself he wouldn't get so knocked out". Sigh.
I think it's an expression of how stretched I am. And, I really needed his presence this weekend. He was away for a week in California (including Sacramento...talk about resentment) and upon his return jumped right back into a work week. Typically, during a work week, we barely see each other. Then, he was sick, and so it's been feeling like an extended period of no contact, no cooperation, no partnership.
It's depressing.
Christmas tree/decorations? Not yet. Holiday cards? Who knows. Doing housework together this weekend? No. My own work time? Not for awhile.
We're spending Saturday night together and away this coming weekend to celebrate 17 years together. But, when time together is so sparse day-to-day, I wonder how celebratory we'll be. We'll probably be going over our calendars/coordinating schedules, and having to deal with a lot of little stuff to get it out of the way before we can even get to just chilling out.
I need some intimacy here!
I've effectively killed my buzz.
2 comments:
I have the tendency to want to get the chores done before relaxing, and Mike doesn't. He can do the fun relaxing stuff first without regard to the stuff that isn't getting done. Sometimes I have to be like Mike. You can deal with all the little stuff when you get back. Because it's little stuff. xxooMidori
So true. Life without crazy reality-bending hormones would be so much easier. I just wish I had gone back to Dr. Li sooner. His treatment and care have really helped me in the last few weeks. Hence, the increased zen of the next post.
xoxo back
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